Falling and flying

Passport,  please.
-Reasons  for  travelling?
Missed  him  like  all  hell.
The  visa  stamp  says:  
Borders  and  miles  
ain't  got  nothing
on  what  we  had.  
Loud  words  for  something  so  quiet
but  it's  been  weeks  
and  weeks  and  weeks  
and  I  could  have  taken  it  longer  
but  with  everything  I  am  
I  don't  want  to.
All  the  airport  dawns,  
all  the  trains  going  in  circles  
I  didn't  know  it  could  be  like  this.  
Is  it  that  I  realized  recently  -
I'm  yours?
Remember  that  song?  
Signed,  sealed,  delivered.      
Man  in  the  seat  to  the  right,  
stop    looking  at  me  like  that  
I  can't  help  the  goofy  grin.  
Forgive  me  please  the  temporary  insanity  of  
soon  ...soon  ...soon.  

This  is  truly  ridiculous.
Is  this  why  they  call  it  falling?  
It  actually  feels  like  I've  been  falling  
for  some  time  already  
and  now  have  spread  my  wings  to  fly...
to  you.  
Oh  but  you  make  me  think
in  the  most  purple  of  proses!
Even  when  you  are  not  there.  
Or  maybe  especially  then.  
And  I  would've  rolled  my  eyes  
at  this  inability  to  eat,  
If  I  wasn't  so  happy.  
Soon,  soon,  soon.

How  did  this  happen?
You  left  and  took  a    part  of  me  with  you.
You  left  and  a  part  of  you  stayed  behind.  
On  that  count  I  wasn't    fooled.  
I  know  you.  Enough  and  not  enough.  
It  was  like  there  was  wind  whistling  
in  the  places,  where  you  should  have  been.
in  my  bed,  in  my  head,  in  my  blood  
and,  hell,  my  heart.  
Enough  and  not  enough.
Didn't  you  hear  the  empty  spaces  
between  the  words  of  
"let's  stay  friends"  messages?
Then  one  day  
we  were  unable  to  talk  each  other  
into  what  just  looked  like  sense  
All  the  spaces  filled  up  with  plans.  
And  now,
soon  soon  soon.

I'll  never  say  any  of  this  to  him    
This  is  for  the  clouds  to  keep  
But  when  he  sees  me
he  will  read  all  the  falling  and  flying  
written  large
on  my  probably  monumentally  embarrassed  face.
Soon  now,  just  hours.

адреса: https://www.poetryclub.com.ua/getpoem.php?id=599043
Рубрика: Лірика кохання
дата надходження 11.08.2015
автор: petra pan