Just hope is all I have today
I am not bad but also not okay
Whats wrong? I cant define,
Everythings good.
But something interferes with my merry mood.
Sometimes some facts get on my nerves
But this is not the reason of my heaviness.
My only dream is to turn off my phone,
To switch off the light in my room
& fall asleep alone.
Whats wrong, I dont know.
Everythings fine.
But sometimes I look in the mirror
& see myself crying.
I want Im trying all the time
To destroy this fucking moody style
But every time it comes back to my mind
It seems to me it wants one day
To see me die.
I hope that tomorrow everything will change
But the next day I see these circumstences are strange
No changes at all
I"m loosing control,
I"m tired, no fight,
just leave me alone.
What"s wrong? I can"t say,
my soul became poor,
God, please, give me the key
I need your help for sure,
God, please, no more lees, no more tears, no more fears,
just delete my memory
and delete my feelings.
And present someone else
with this beautyful appearence.
